Insecurities.
Saturday, August 18, 2012 @ 7:12 AM
I think I should blog for at least once or twice a week if
possible. Had thought of writing dairy instead of blogging because I’ve got
really loads of feelings to write about but I just can’t share it here, >:
Hmm, shall reconsider again, but during this period of time, I think I should
just blog. <:
August hadn’t been as good as I first thought it will. >:
Depressed mood on for almost ¾ the month, and the worst thing is I’m not even
looking forward to my birthday, feel like no one will give a single shit about
it either, so… I’m not having much hope either. (‘: I guess really flung my
examinations. And as usual, I made my parents disappointed again, what’s with
me this month, I really don’t know what I’ve been thinking and feeling.
I seriously got many untold feelings inside right now, but I
got no freaking idea how to start or even describe the feeling, feel really
suffocated at times that I just feel like breaking down, even in the public. I
just don’t know why I become so emotional these days, I think I really need to
control myself, hais. But after going through all these, I found true friends
which made me glad eh? <: Still
remember once when my mom talked to me, and I tweeted if anyone text me at that
point of time, and my girls really did. Bunch of awesome people.
Told Manting loads of things especially, I swear I really
feel so much better, and then we’ve been continuing this conversation for days!
We chatted about family, friends and loads of crap. Thanks. <: ♥ My
sec3 life was really a tough journey, and I seriously think that my attitude
becoming more and more suckish, need to change heh. <: Anyway I’ve dyed my
hair back to black again, sucks, black looks really ugly. Even I myself cannot
even stand it, wts. So, my aunt helped me to dye back, and she said that the
teacher should just go and die, because my color isn’t obvious at all. Hilarious
moment. And I need my hair treatment soon because my hair condition really
sucks now. >:
Will try to blog soon again! I just want to end here because
I feel like sleeping. Hehe. I know it’s still early, but whatever. My sleep is
just important to me. ^^
Sandra ♥
